So yea today have been a weird one to say the least, i have been feeling okay all day until this evening, my throat hurts abit, my chest is abit tight and i feel my emotions trying to break out. What a weekend it has been, breakdowns, emotional outbursts and people not really feeling this…… Continue reading Sunday my mind is working against me…
So today the snow have all but melted sadly and it even came some rain wich doesnt help wich means we gonna get frozen roads and traffic problems up to our necks… But yea today we were outside and the small amount of snow have been replaced with ice pretty much but that doesnt stop…… Continue reading Thursday just enjoying the countdown to vacation…
So yea what an rollecoaster of a month september have been.. it doesnt seem to get better but we will see… I have gone through happiness, sadness, anger, loneliness, anxiety, “greyzone” wich is when everything is bleak and cold and you cant find any joy from anything. Its been such an emotional rollercoaster that I…… Continue reading Sunday looking back at the rollercoaster of a month..
Today was a pretty okay day, but after work was done and I got home and sat down i started feeling weird.. Its like im an empty husk a shell with no real content inside. I am unsure why I feel like this and I have tried meditating on this but everytime I think I…… Continue reading Friday feeling hollow..
Sometimes life throws you a curveball wich turns your life upside down. But then as soon as its starting to feel okay it takes it all away. I felt truely happy for the first time in 9 years 1 month ago, that feeling stayed with me until september came around and everything started moving. I…… Continue reading Sunday reflecting.
Yea the past blogpost have been short but todays gonna be abit longer cause i have some news to share! Today after work I actually went out and looked at my first apartment. It was a fairly nice apartment, a few cracks in the paint but over all a decent apartment with 2 rooms and…… Continue reading Monday a new week
Its weird but people have been talking about how it feels to miss a person, like I never really understood it before. I have for the past week been in calls and chats with someone and this person just manages to boost my mood in a second, like it was never there. I am thinking…… Continue reading Saturday i am kinda start to understand something…
Yea feelings and especially new feelings thats intriguing to feel after so many years that I have forgotten hos this feels! I have been talking to someone for the past week, and I mean talking as in discord calls and just chatting alot, except when I been at work, then I only sent messages when…… Continue reading This feeling is something I never experienced before!?
Its weird as life truely always will surprice me in so many different ways. Today was no exception. I have been talking to a guy for several days about a week now and we just click, both emotionally and mentally. We share intrests games and values. I just feel really weird how much I truely…… Continue reading Saturday life is changing forever..
So yea Wednesday the middle of the week again, the days truely do fly past like there is no tomorrow (pun intended).. Well todays topic is quite heavy on me as this is how i feel the past few weeks well even months. I look on myself and the more the days past I know…… Continue reading Wednesday What am i even feeling?