Its weird as life truely always will surprice me in so many different ways.
Today was no exception. I have been talking to a guy for several days about a week now and we just click, both emotionally and mentally. We share intrests games and values. I just feel really weird how much I truely am connecting with someone like this.
I always thought I wouldnt be able to connect to someone like this, not since my last relationship wich well didnt go well..
But here I am actually connecting with someone I only spoke to for a week, even deeper then I think I done before actually it feels abit confusing to me but yea it also feels pretty nice.
I also noticed in the evening, we were chatting just about something and he brought up something about predjuse and hate and I just snapped, I snapped so bad like I never snapped like that before atleast not since I was like 10 years old or so. But this was not anger it was pure unbridle fury and I ranted for 15 minutes about the topic, and then I just cried. The fury changed to compassion and feelings of helplessness. It was so much at once that I couldnt handle it.
So yea my life is taking new steps and im growing as a person, am I feeling confident? Yes, am I still suffering from anxiety, low selfasteem and some type of depression yes but those things are me but I wont spend to much time focusing on those anymore!
Now ima rest cause this took all my energy, what a day!