Its weird but sometimes you just gotta take a step back and question your own motives.. so thats what I did today.
I been wondering what do I really want out of my life? Like properly what DO I WANT? The answer is i dont really want much out of my life, I am not even greedy I think.. maybe I am but I dont think I am..
So like I wrote in the last post i wanna find a place to call home, I want someone to come home to, I want to explore the world and see what it offers. Thats not much right? I also wanna open up an coffee shop, a cosy place where people just can come in for the atmosphere and a chat with their friends/spouse/kids etc etc.
But sometimes I forget who I am and then that hits me like a truck.. Sometimes I wish and people will probably ask me why.. but sometimes I just wish to dissapear and lose the unstable ground I stand on..
“Your still young, you will find your home”
One day maybe but that day is not today nor is it tomorrow or next week, but for now I will keep walking this unstable ground until it finally will cave in under my feet.