Its weird but today I am sitting with my thesis but my heart isnt in there, its like its not even close anymore. It feels weird to say that but I am not even close to feel fullfilled or even thrilled that uni is almost over and it feels like I dont wanna take pride in the fact that i managed to get through 3.5 years and show that other uni that I can and know what I am doing. Wich they spoke that i didnt have in me to go through. Well look at me now I am almost done just a few more weeks and I walked through 3.5 years of studies and survived!
Today is a day with more writing on the thesis but not gonna lie I just want it to be done, Its emotionally draining, stressing and keeps me thinking over and over,w hat if this isnt good enough, have i followed all the rules? Have i managed to get the answers to the questions i asked? There are so much to keep in the head that its hard to keep a straight thought anymore.
This weekend is going to finishing as much as possible so I am expecting to feel completely numb next week but last push now to get this done and over with!
Todays lyrics are from 2 songs and its a cover by
“Conor Maynard – Hollywood´s bleeding and Numb”
Lyrics from Post Malone – Hollywood´s Bleeding:
“Hollywood’s bleeding, vampires feedin’
Darkness turns to dust
Everyone’s gone, but no one’s leavin’
Nobody left but us
Tryna chase a feelin’, but we’ll never feel it
Ridin’ on the last train home
Dyin’ in our sleep, we’re living out a dream
We only make it out alone”
Lyrics from Linkin Park – Numb:
“Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Become so tired
So much more awareI’m becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me”
//Dan
Danwolfmoon 