Friday a day of not feeling like myself.

So today i woke up as usual, felt abit cold and watched outside and its completely icy everywhere. Checking my thermometer and it states that it is -8 degrees outside and im just feeling I AM NOT going outside today… Well come down and the first thing i hear is “we are going to town to the pharmacy, store and the kiosk” and i just feel what cant we wait until it gets abit warmer and i get “Nope we are going now” so a quick breakfast later and we are off. 

Now for the past 3 hours i have been studying to finish the retake exam and i manage to finish it so now i just gotta send in for evaluation and hope i get a passing grade. 

But i have a horrible sad feeling in my chest today, i feel like i am on the verge of breaking down, and i francly feel like nothing in the world matters anymore. So right now im sitting listening to happy and feelgood music to make sure i get rid of this tough feeling that will if not handled break me completely. So i will be trying to get rid of this and go to sleep early today. Francly i could probably just go to sleep now and not care about the rest of the day, but that is not who i am. 

Even tho the above song is a love song the beat is really cheerful and makes me abit happier so i just keep going through my happy youtube list and we will see how it will go. 

But i eventually probably will try and get someone to talk to just to get rid of all this heavy feelings i keep holding in to get it out. There are stuff that i cant explain in text so for now i just hope that IF you are feeling down that you have someone that you can talk to and that will support you.


By Dan

Swedish, preschool teacher, learning more about life and myself every single day!

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