So yea today i am feeling alot better, I had to spend the majority talking about what was going on in my head for it to ease down and make me realize how much my life really is and has changed just the couple of weeks.
I need to remember that as things are going now i wont only have to think about myself but i need to consider alot of other things.
Life has taken huge steps for me the past month and now im just starting to realize that. Its time i actually do my best to try and live a life i want and not a life everyone else want me to live.
But yea i am enjoying my vacation and all that has happend so far has been amazing, life is really enjoyable and i will keep making sure i keep enjoying the coming 4 weeks of vacation, and no i dont regret taking 6 weeks off. It is needed and i feel like i finally am recovering alot of energy and happiness!