Well i guess this will be a short post again cause i really feel abit weird today, i feel quite mellow still and i am having issues boosting myself up, but today was an okay day anyway.
But i look myself in the mirror and wonder where i will be in 1-2 years. I am wondering if i have gotten quite to comfortable with life, tho deep down i already know this is not how it can continue and in a really near future this needs to change for me to continue my journey.
I am currently stuck in a place where i am feeling trapped and i am terrified of trying to break out. I am terrified of myself for being so weak and am frozen solid in my wish to change.
I feel like i am losing a battle with myself and thats not what anyone wants… But its in my nature and i am still truely uncertain what i should do..